I think the devil had a good laugh that day.
You know, the day I walked out of your life.
He's been my only company, besides pure misery.
Constantly tormenting my thoughts with pure negativity.
Making me believe and relive my worst fears.
A nightmare I can't get out of.
Where I relive the moment I realized you couldn't of cared about me and how I bled to death trying to save us.

Its a hell I'd never wish on anyone, where all your fears are realized in one single nightmare.

I'm cursed.

Living out my days in bitter torment.
The sleepless nights.
The wide awake.
The detachment of the mind.
The longing.
The yearning.
The never ending tears.
Loving you was my biggest curse, this much I understand.

I'm sure you're thinking how ridiculous, how absurd.
Please forgive me, I never knew pain like this.

I just want to find the light again and come back to life again.
So for now I guess, I'll just lie awake at night, pray to a God who I feel has forgotten about me, until he forgives me for ending a marriage that simple broke me.