When I left, I wasn't sure you were really gone
I couldn't understand how to disconnect
You weren't a lamp I could unplug
But you somehow felt like a switch I just turned off one day
I can't find the switch in the dark
Maybe I smashed the lightbulb or ripped out the wires
This hurts... like my knuckles have been bleeding
Like knowing you somehow continued, my heart didn't pump your blood
Everything we said about love crumbling out into the desert you've never seen
I don't know why, that's not a fair question
I clenched my teeth against the wind, because I can still feel you
No matter how long, or how far

I've read over the messages,
Looked at the pictures,
Cursed myself for believing in you
But we have to hold on to something, right? And whether that ledge is concrete or shale... it's something
You aren't a thread flowing through my life
You're a stain, ground in to one spot, and the colour is beautiful
But you don't belong there,
Simple as that.