Jan 2018
"I can see my door, my bed, my window, my chair, and my table.
"I can feel my spine against the wall, my feet against the floor, my jaw tightly shut, and my fingernails buried in my arms.
"I can hear the wind coming in from the open window, my heartbeat rapidly thumping, and that familiar voice in my head, shouting once again.
"I can smell the dampness of the ground outside as the breeze carries it to my room, and the sickly sweet odor from the soap used on my hands.
"I can ******* blood spilling from the bite in my lip; my last harsh reminder that
I
am
still
alive.
"I can feel my spine against the wall, my feet against the floor, my jaw tightly shut, and my fingernails buried in my arms.
"I can hear the wind coming in from the open window, my heartbeat rapidly thumping, and that familiar voice in my head, shouting once again.
"I can smell the dampness of the ground outside as the breeze carries it to my room, and the sickly sweet odor from the soap used on my hands.
"I can ******* blood spilling from the bite in my lip; my last harsh reminder that
I
am
still
alive.
When you call a suicide prevention hotline, they will often ask you to describe to them 5 things you can see, 4 things you can feel, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste to help ease anxiety. I hope this poem helps someone struggling to look forward, because believe me, it does get better.
