I look up into the sky
full of soft lights
and blaring darkness

And I count
I count the stars
fluttering against the bold background

It’s a way for me to calm myself
to soothe the overwhelming nerves
shouting at me in a scared voice

It takes my mind,
the scattered and ragged place,
and slowly but surely cleans it

And by the time the sun peeks out
from behind the straying darkness
I’m ready to start over