it's treacherous, really how far out of your way you are willing to go just to find someone who is not me.
and for what?
for the adrenaline rush of an ego boost (?)
and at the price of what? the hem that has held my heart together is beginning to rip- the seams are giving way spilling out every and all of the things that i try so hard to contain
at the price of my own comfortability. i forfeit my precious solitude, only to be met with the coldest and emptiest of embraces. slight looks of annoyance, eyes averted quickly at laughter as if mad that someone might hear me.
where do i get off on burning the ends of my nerves so that your touch does not make me shudder?
attempting to hold it all together, as i canΒ Β be responsible for you in life but not ever in death.
i'm so worn thin. why does my significant other wish to seek attention from other women in that way?