You talk about wanting to be successful, but your actions are only regretful. Empty the contents of your bottle, just to still be there tomorrow. Just wake up early to achieve, even though you truly don't believe, that you can be successful, put your head down and be grateful.
An excuse is what you all use, instead of changing your world views. Become what you want, by believing you are enough. In the words of a great man, think and grow rich you can.