I remember Staring at the vast ocean of stars Praying, wishing with the last lingering thought before sleep That my life wouldn't be so stagnant For an adventure worthy of tales To throw me off my guard
They say, "Be careful what you wish for in the dark."
Seeing myself in the mirror A monster, a horror An unknown disease lurking, hidden A virus within forever
Wrapping my head in my arms A self-loathe burning like a fever A desire to pluck out my nails Like plucking out petals from a flower
I love me, I don't love me, I don't love me I don't ever love me
Stop breathing down my neck Stop pawing me for answers Stop drilling holes in my back I can hear your whispers
I know, I know I don't need you to tell me I'm disgusting I could throw up just looking at myself
It's pathetic that I brought this onto myself I used to laugh at the stars Cursing and swearing like nothing ever matters "When the world comes crashing down, Use it as a blanket," I used to say.
Who knew, who knew I'd never see Myself the same again
Who knew, who knew, I'd never see The sun rise again