I guess you're sleeping, I would be surprised if you weren't. I'm sharing my thoughts with you. I think you care but I'm not sure. People say they care all the time and they really don't. Maybe I'm sharing with you because you are so far away and it's easier that way. I don't have to see the shame or disappointment in your eyes. Haven't heard your voice in a while and maybe that's a good thing. Because I honestly for whatever reason believe there is something different about you. I'm rambling. If you were standing in front of me I would be tripping over my words. I feel like screaming. Just to let everything out. I am losing myself. I have no idea who or what I want to be anymore. I'm trying to see positivity but I'm clouded in despair and I don't know what to do anymore. I hate that I'm losing me. It is so hard to breathe, I really don't want to be anymore, I don't care to exist. I am unhappy.