I’m avoiding a void, Freud warned me of by worming my way in to the apple of my eye I know it sounds paranoid as above so below ground zero dark thirty where I heard the well runs dry. Hell, I wonder why I try to quench my thirst for knowledge from any ***** puddle when I’m at a cow college ‘cuz nowadays I rather cuddle up with a good book than be-fuddled by how to transgress, ring a bell hooks? Well looks deceive and I can guess by the wings you have yet to receive we have come to the some of nothing from something I thought we were far beyond but maybe I was wrong at the end of it all. You said it wasn’t my fault but then again, Freire taught me how to lock away my thoughts in a vault.
I’m hemmed in with Hemingway in the corner of the café. We spend half the day laughing at our neighbors savoring their lattes but condemning how they stray away from nature ‘cuz labor’s not their taste. He says, “What a waste of time. Do you see a better paradigm?” I agree because I was scared at the time to embarrass myself in front of an idol of mine. I know it’s futile to rival a dead mind but when they’re better than the headlines I don’t mind if I never shine brighter than a dying light ‘cuz it only really matters in the end if I’m trying right? but what am I trying for when I lost a friend to love and war? Cut the ties, I’m alive. Who was I dying for? Who was I fighting for? Who was I writing for?
Shelby tells me where the sidewalk ends and well, he’s been a better friend than you’ve ever been; ever since you left me and met he who shall not be named nor blamed for this game you played against us. Again trust was just a part of it all. I was miserable like Margaret Hall. Withdrawals always reinforce walls of remorse and of course, I’m the source of all your problems but who took the time to resolve them? You weren’t forced to endorse any course of action except follow the laws of attraction. Perhaps gravity magnifies abreaction or the severity of abstraction. Yet Apollo would swallow all his pride and passion hollow out his home and throw a match in.