These last 11 days.
I lost 2 people I love.

She was the object of my desires and it seems she's still seeks an old flame that's already burnt out. He was my main inspiration, he suffered with his own personal demons and tragically took his own life.

I've made a huge *** of myself before to both of you, I am sorry for that.

Blaming you for seeing in them what I see in myself and being petulant about the outcome, Blaming you for your demons and not being by your side.
I'm so sorry  

These last 11 days.
I lost two people I love