The clock screamed at zero three hundred hours, My mind was terrorised by thousand bullets of fear and doubt, There was a cyclone of anxiety and worry, I tried to seek for shelter but couldnt. Hoping for peace but it was dull and dreary. All my life I was afraid of the dark and fear was inevitable, It felt as if I was standing on a railway, facing an oncoming train I stood there Frozen But nothing was holding me back, and I didnt want to run either.
My inner voice wanted to rant A thousand reason of why I should be afraid Of repressed emotion, of words unsaid I prayed, Tried to be a saint But my heart was a blank canvas, left unintended and fear acted as paint. All I wanted was an embrace of apology from myself to myself, Because I have never said sorry for the things that I did to me, to my mind. Now I wanted to resign. I sighed my last sorrow, and burned the art apprehension drew, Desperate for a positive morrow. I remembered what dad said about clinging to the past, Of happiness that won't last He said we are not meant to hold on, we're meant to let go.
Tonight I said sorry to my fear because we're going to be brave for the first time.