I have yet to see the full wonder of God. Like a big, colourful butterfly... with each flap of its wings a new colour is revealed. I'm amazed and in awe. Words fail to capture what rests in my heart. With every thought, my heart smiles and swells with excitement. To know that this God I hear about... knows me loves me and created me. Me. Thandi. Weird and awkward... He still sees me and calls for me. Pursues me and astonishes me with His mystery. I'm amazed that I am His child and that He actually wants the best for me. Where have I been this entire time... away from this truth? Where have I been looking, what have I been searching for because I'm overwhelmed by this truth. It has grabbed my heart and captured my spirit... to remember exactly who Jesus is and what He did for me. What the scriptures say resound the heart of Jesus and I'm so excited to know Him. I am too happy to know Jesus. I can't believe I could've missed this unspeakable joy. This freedom, this victory. What have I been looking for? A genie in a box, a saviour chilling at a street corner, a make-believe god who is powerless? What have been waiting for, hoping in, praying for? Now I see, now I know... there is no other place my soul would rather be. Nothing the world gives compares to this.