I ended things with Liliana, but I don't know It doesn't hurt, Nor does it feel any better. I've been so clustered and terrified of my own problems I forgot how to feel, how to be happy, or even sad. Or was it sad to say our best moments consisted of petty laughs about my ***** leaving your ****** in pain, or you laughing as you ******* while I drive 60 miles an hour I really don't know But we did say those stuff off and on. You know like... I love yous with smirks and I miss yous with hours delay of texting after It's weird... But I met this girl today And she made me laugh... I didn't think about ******* her once. Surprisingly. I just loved her smile. And that simple moment made me feel I've wasted a while or two. Either that or... I wanted to see you smile. Like that atleast.
We both were so nonchalant towards a relationship... Why did we keep it going? I'm still confused.