The day we roared with infinite jest the larder packed tight with provisions burst. So much canned meats, tinned, pemmican hardtack we had stored knowing our journey north would be sufficiently trying that sustenance would prove difficult.
The slog. The slacking day when you rolled off the sled, creviced. Your voice booming blue crystalline as we see, no escape. Trapped and the cans I hurl into the hole.
Hours I read to you lipped, curled into a snail, a shell, a crocus of yellow a dread of finishing the story and saying to you there is no more. So you cannot tell, when the pages have ended I make up confabulate truth and fiction embellish. Pretend the story line marches forward decades and we are in the Amazon; You’ve discovered that the water that seemed guileless is crocodile filled. They bite hard and you can imagine.
All primary colors on the floes, all glacial movement, slow to melt, fast to burn through the colors of our arctic rainbow. I had primed the lamp the last night, before that dawn, before the ride in which you fell. The wick trimmed and each consequential action of the day I placed hanks of hair neatly side by side into banks of snow. Under my cracked tongue is a bump that rolls mole like cyst.
Partner of my travels to this cold realm, your self shelved. Below: Did you hear me whisper? Asking why today have I become. The whispered promise of holding upright against the dark. I thought. It would be magnificent.
Not even fanfare. Or aurora borealis. Or flight. Yes dreams of flying. Yes dreams of ahah so it is after all. I thought I would recognize the moment of unleashing. What makes the special now? If I whisper Abandon I might hear you echo in the ice. I might see your boot, attached to. A glove alone, unpaired.
The story they lived, the story they tell is one of each husky, one by one, no longer. Starvation and then there are none. But we are in the Amazon, and it is a scorching hot day and there is much to be explored until you fall into the river and get bit.
I take it all back. You laugh because I add flying monkeys which is us pretending that we’ve explored this terrain which looks like a bed in a room and a chart. They cannot stop your bleed, and so we begin again.