My roommate gets mad furious even because I tend to use all the hot water. When I take a shower or just wash my hands, I turn the water to boiling hot. I let it roll down my skin and singe my scalp. I used to be a person who hated being hot. I'd take cold or even lukewarm showers. It wasn't until I realized I no longer felt anything that I needed the water. I needed the burns, I needed the pressure. Have you ever felt so empty that you'd rather feel pain?