A letter came in the mail
For you today
Don't they know
It's been nearly four years

I remembered the way you'd throw out
The junk mail
And I tried to hold
Back the tears

They say time heals all
But I'm still waiting
For the day when I pass your old house
And don't get the chills

Or when I can finally smile
Or maybe even laugh
At the fact that we still get
Your bills

For now it's still hard not to feel
The guilt for having fun without you here
At family dinners with an empty seat
I always feel such shame

With each holiday
Your seat gets lonelier
And it gets harder for me to breathe
When I hear your name

They don't understand why
I still get chocked up
While thinking of you
Because three full years have gone past

Sometimes I forget
They only expect you to be sad
For as long as the flowers
Last