The others- they all tell their version of this as a brag
a slight air of look at what happened to me
But when they commiserate I never say a word

And I've tried to figure out why these past few years
Maybe it's that I don't feel it's fair to judge when I can't peer into the psyche of the
other side
Maybe it's that I'm trying to pretend I've already found closure
But I think these might all be excuses
A way to hide what I don't want to admit is the truth

The reason why we most often hold our tongues and look down
is shame

so it would seem that I'm still ashamed I let this come to pass

it wasn't your fault, the therapist says

but you saying that doesn't help if I don't believe it