This horrible feeling This constant reminder Of how my life is not one worth living So many mistakes So many regrets None is which can be returned to me All I want is for this smile on my face to be real I smile everyday I laugh all the time I say I'm happy Although not once was it true In 4th grade girls' minds Is how to braid hair and jump rope But in this 10 year old mind lays Suicidal thoughts to no end Except the one to unlatch No source of it Just the thought of What's the point in life?. No matter the direction we will take Our roads will all meet in one spot Death The beautiful, breath-taking moment of Death The moment I'm longing for But how will it come?. A car accident?. A heart attack?. Will it be gruesome?. Or will it be of natural cause?. In my sleep?. I don't care I just want it to come Come faster I don't want this life I'm living I don't care for it And never will I don't care if I will end up In my own big white house With matching white plates and bowls That's worth more than the snowy white husky And the an Audi R8 in the garage Alongside my perfectly polished children and spouse Who will never hear the idiotic thought of rebelling against me Or if I end up living with no job No fancy house Or a car Or family If I'm all alone Living in the streets I don't ******* care I just want the Grim Reaper to come take me Take me with you You have my soul to take Just put me out of my misery I can't stand being on this planet In this universe No strings attached Please I beg of you Just help Rid me of this Forsaken worthless case of a life I call my own Because it is unwanted Itβs yours to take And keep