Every time I close my eyes,
I think of all the times I had to hide.
And every time I see you smile,
I wonder why you didn't stay for awhile.
And I'll try to hold back my tears,
I'll try to help you through you fears.
But just know, inside I'm dying,
And I hate the fact I'm always lying.
I don't think I can do this anymore,
I tried so **** hard to close the door.
Some how you always find your way back in,
I'm never able to speak, but forced to listen.
I stay silent, for what seems like ages,
Forced to write my unspoken thoughts on empty pages.
Hoping one day I can finally open up to you,
These are the things I so badly wish you knew.