I didn't sleep again last night
My eyelids are heavy and my throat feels tight
Time seems to run away
When I'm with you
My brain
Not in a good way though
My thoughts wound me as I stare out of the window
Which scares me, I think there are monsters outside
Is that childish? Or true? I Don't know, I'm too tired to decide
Even if there aren't monsters outside there are certainly some in my head
Which like to run wild as I lay still, alone in my bed
They tease and taunt me, tell me I'm unsafe
So I can't sleep, just incase.
I know these thoughts are irrational
But I'd rather lay here and watch dust particles
Float and fall and float again
Please don't leave me alone with my brain.
It is starting to get light
I didn't sleep again last night.

~ T