Somedays I don't feel like writing and it worries me because 'Writers write everday -- real ones, at least.' I fear being ordinary, which is tasteless because maybe being ordinary is what I need.
The appeal of snapbacks and hipster haircuts is starting to make more sense. Blending into a crowd might suit me better; to be invisible but to no longer be insecure.
Rap lyrics make more sense, even though I can't relate; these words are my sedation, these clothes aren't armor but marketable camouflage. My words have been said before, but that might be okay because I'd hate to torment myself wondering about my relevance.
So, to move on, I write, and I write, and I write to pander and to conform. Substituting thought for appealing diction and strong imagery, afraid to show myself because maybe you're too much like me, which, surely, would eat me alive.
Tainted the dreams, once had, realizing how they grew in toxic.