As a child I asked my mother to mend my lonely heart to accept and understand me as I am and not as who she hoped Iβd be.
Please do not turn your pain on me inflicting wounds so deep that I refuse to ever trust myself.
Eyes aflamed with tears. Sinuses clogged with snot. Without comprehending without words I asked for her patience her kindness, to secure my innocence. I asked for safety at home.
Had I known the violence she would sow planting row after row of red marks and broken hearts I would have found a gun and a safe little corner. I would have asked no one and taken the peace I deserved.