I'm not a perfect person I still have rough-edged vice Although I've sought and I've been bought By the Lord Jesus Christ
On my last poetry venue I was sure a geek I made many enemies On the website Poetfreak
I was green as new-mown grass On the internet I also dropped my med therapy Was as crazy as it gets
I posted several poems Of suicidal bent Not one person commented Not one message sent
So I said I was in hospital For suicidal thoughts I even had an alias Who said that I was caught
In a cycle of depression That I needed help I needed people loving me Yes. I did this in stealth
Then I felt so guilty That shame had so much clout I posted an exposé of what I'd done So the truth would come out
Most people were quite good and kind They understood my pain But some were mean and hateful And my guilt remained
So I made another alias His name was Steelrelease I wanted for to be a man So I'd have respect at least
And boy did that become the case! You know how males are They respect their stronger *** It looked like I'd go far
But there were flies in that ointment As it did ensue I became so popular The women liked me TOO!
I met a little teenager Who was suicidal A little waif of a girl And I could not be idle
And so I befriended her I had her full respect I should have known the outcome Due to my male ***
When I did discover What she began to feel I could no longer lie to her And so the truth revealed
Again some stayed by me For they understood But others were quite vicious In that poetic neighborhood
I knew that I would never have Chances to write free So I made up other avatars Other people I could be
Again and again I was found out And I became blamed There was a poet "Lucifer" Who thought I should be shamed
He made several postings Detailing my sins Had many of his own But poets he did win
Though I was repentant He hounded me no end I tried to get away from him But he posted again
Then all of a sudden Some ****** SPAM APPEARED! Under my own avatar It was very weird!
Somebody had hacked me And posted that foul spam! I know I didn't post it FOR I KNOW WHO I AM!
I guess it didn't matter That I posted again That I had not done it But that poem did not trend It really mattered not I tried to make amends
I had written poems For poets on that site No less than 50 people Got a special write
I did not do that out of guilt For I found that I enjoyed The gratitude of people From my work so employed
In the end I left Poetfreak For he kept up his stuff Lucifer was ruthless And I had had enough.
So that is my story I have now come clean Some folks are unforgiving Some folks are downright mean.
But I was in the wrong, you see So they still laid claim To my very character They still rail and blame
Here on this good website I'm friend to age and youth I don't do what I did before And I tell the truth
But you all know that there is talk By a crazy one That I still have aliases In many minds has won
I don't support this person But neither do I blame He is bold and he's a troll But he's totally insane.
Please forgive me people I want for you to know Now I am quite honest Wherever I go
I am a minded writer And I am a part Of the HP community And I have a HEART!
So can you have compassion? I want for you to see I have a arranged to be so changed
Please folks. Forgive me.
SoulSurvivor (C) 7/8/2016
Now I've come clean. Everything I said about it is true. Now. Can people start owning up to their own stuff? Please?!! That's the only way this other situation on the site of Hello Poetry is ever going to change. It is only when people start to assess their own faults that they can see they don't have a leg to stand on with others business.
In the Bible it says character assassination is tantamount to ******. I don't know where that is. I'm not a Bible scholar. But trust me it is there.
Will folks just please forgive me so we can go on? I'm truly sorry for what I've done in the past. The past is the past. Let us bury it.