it's not that she doesn't want to be loved she so much wants it... She just doesn't believe anyone can love her the way she craves not even her own self's succeeded... she wants the fairy tales, she wants paradise she wants a lad who can read her eyes and whose soul is an open book for all she's encountered are lies She just wants what she can't get or thinks she won't... the ghost few have seen yet all speak about... she wants true love, an extinct in her universe