Although I know you are poison I would still let you back in Excited for you to ruin me again and again and again Until I've been beaten down to the point of giving up on you
You've caused me enough psychological damageΒ Β to last me a lifetime Best friends forever Best friends forever Three words that cause my hands to shake and the blood in my veins to boil You promised me forever and gave me two months Were the "I love you's" just another way to get me to shut up Did any of this year mean anything at all to you Did I ever mean anything to you
I can tell myself you didn't mean a **** thing I can say that I never needed you I can tell everyone that I never loved you But unfortunately I am an awful liar and they all know the truth They know that I loved your green eyes and how you always smelled of cigarette smoke They know that when I was high with you all I wanted was to taste your lips They know that I loved you They know They know it all But do you?
The amount of time I spent keeping you alive was love The notes and the hugs and the promises of forever was love I said I loved you every single day and I truly meant it I guess I wasn't enough