I should stop thinking about you
when a song plays over the buzz of caffeine drinkers’ talk
and I immediately track back to our first dance
when you took me in your arms

I should stop thinking about you
when I pass by the bookstore
and see your favourite book, on the raised shelf
and remember your fingers as you ghost every page like they ghosted over my spine

I should stop thinking about you
it’s dangerous during daytime
to daydream meeting you around the corner
and kissing your neck like I always want to

I should stop thinking about you
you’re a boondoggle in my headspace
day and night, always out of sight
but never, ever out of my mind

I should stop thinking about you
how we looked at stars when we should have gone home
how you told me lines from my favourite book
and held my hand because you simply wanted to

it felt
right.

you feel
like the best movie on Friday nights
snuggled up in pyjamas
a comfort I would never exchange

you feel
right.

but right isn’t always the end
and sometimes we have to take the left turn
to find the end of the road

where we found ourselves
three years ago

I still think of you
during the fall
when autumn leaves drop
softly, like I did
for you

I still think of you
on cold nights
wondering if you’re warm
if the scarf I gave you is still holding up

I still think of you
during the summer
how you would go to my house
and ask me to go on bike rides

I still think of you
whenever springtime rolls around
a different place, every break
a different adventure, we would take

but now
that’s all gone
memories and stories
but we no longer exist

and

I should stop thinking about you
but I can’t