Dad...

I do know I'm a terrible child
who doesn't know everything. 

I do know I want to do what seems impossible
and probably won't get to it.

I do know who I am. Mostly. 
I'll tell you one day.

I do know you care 
even when our views oppose.

I hide away in my room everyday
because I'm not ready...
to tell you who I am,
who I want to be,
what I want to do
and where I want to see.

I feel like I'm living a lie
sometimes I want to die 
or hurt myself until I feel like I am. 
I'm not who I am. 

I'll tell you one day. Hopefully soon.