I am my lover's *****. I am not the object of his affection but rather a tangible stable entity he sometimes chases after. Much like a dog craving his favorite chew toy. Playfully rolling in a puddle of mud which coincidentally is exactly what he thinks of me. A property, only his to be owned Even when he throws me away, I should never dare to dethrone him from the place he still thinks he owns. To him I am unclean, forgetting that his own hands have soiled my soul more than the ones before him. He wraps his unkind words around my neck, ruthless knots I can't forget. He speaks of growing old while he eagerly counts down the years to my death. Not knowing that with every breath I now die a little less. Because when he leaves, the noose around my neck loosens a volcanic anger flows from within me full of realisation that he can no longer have me, because I now come at an expense he can no longer afford.
to an abusive relationship full of double standards