These demons that live inside of me

The voices that create these things

These nightmares

The things that keep me up at night

The thing that's makes me scream and shout


I see people

I talk to people

I walk with them everyday

But yet, I couldn't be more lonely


It troubles me that I can't talk

I can't say a word that goes on inside of my heart

Inside my heart it's a scary place

There hides a demon

Two if you must

And they wither and they fight


If I tell

These demons will surely know

They will make me feel so much pain

Why could I tell?

People won't understand


They will call me crazy

They say it's a stage that I'm going through

But why has it been going on for years?

I have been asking the same thing for years


Maybe it's because I can't let it go

This pain that shrivels inside of me

It's what comforts me at night

The tears that fall

It is wiped away by these demons


If I am lonely

They come

Wrapping their invisible arms around me

Holding my helpless hand

I scream


Why can't they leave me alone?

These demons

They are always there

Clouding my thoughts, my judgements

I say it's my conscience

But is it?


My friends can tell something is wrong

They ask me if I am okay

I say I'm fine, just tired


I do smile sometimes

I even laugh

And that laugh and smile is true

It's true because its keeping the demons away


But then soon I am alone

And my laughter dies down

My smile fades

The demons walk back in

And they whisper, did you miss me?


Then I realize something that I have known for a while

I am lost

I am helpless

And the only thing that truly comforts me

Are my demons inside of me