I never thought I would live this long. I thought I would be dead by fifty. Live hard, make a pretty corpse Seemed, at the time to be nifty. But, fifty came and went on by And did so relatively quickly, And here am I, not doddering Not stooped over, not sickly.
I remember being that kind of kid Who thought forty was old age. The kind of oldster playing gramps In the movies and on the stage. Gray hair meant guys near death, I needed not too much convincing. Thinking of that, thirty years on, These days, has me broadly wincing.
Looking back is more difficult As eyesight loses credibility. So much of what one sees in youth Is forgotten so very easily. I look at the photographs of me Back when I had flattened abs. Back when my flesh was taut And hung on me in solid slabs.
I didn’t seem to have any limits And could do anything I’d care. Now a long walk is difficult and My best friend is an easy chair. Today I see life as a daily feat That seems to come on quietly Like a maid in a swank hotel. It comes in and then out, silently.
I hasten to assure, I am not Complaining about anything. I have had more than my share Of victories, spent my winnings. It’s just that I never planned To be an a senior citizen, Entitled to cheaper entry fees, An early-bird buffet denizen.
With amazement I nod whenever Young people offer their seats. And any time I run a bit too fast My heart skips a couple of beats. Then I walk by a mirror and see That older person standing there Who is amazed to still be here Rocking a head of gray hair.