Apr 2016
I can only think
I can only hear
I can only see
I can feel the fear
I can imagine what I desire
Dreams that were once there
Imagination turning desperate
Hallcinations laughing in my mind
I can catch the sound of weeping
Whispering tendrils close to my ear
Ignore the angry beast still sleeping
Hissing and mocking, never leaving
I can picture the sorrow
Glittering threads spin away
My mind's eye shuts it out
An image of sorrow, where it lay
I feel the pounding in my heart
A feeling steeped in fear
Fingers clawing at my lips and arms
Till blood peeks out, a crimson leer
Hands clench and unclasp
Reaching out to someone
One who means the world to me
Anyone else, they find themselves eclipsed
The pounding rings harder
Unrelentless, unforgiving
The yearning grips stronger
Smothering, suffocating
And suddenly...
Sensations wash away
Gears creaking to a halt
Silence comforting in my ears
Doused in darkness, no need for help
I let my sigh fill with peace
I wave the noises right by
I let my gaze pass unseeing
I fold my arms against myself
I fear the loneliness, beckoning to me
I fear its fingers, threatening a trap
I fear my acceptance, what is needed of me
I fear its fishhooks, swung out
and reeled into its lap
I know it is time
I know I'll be alone
I hope I know how to climb
Back up where love awaits
I can only hear
I can only see
I can feel the fear
I can imagine what I desire
Dreams that were once there
Imagination turning desperate
Hallcinations laughing in my mind
I can catch the sound of weeping
Whispering tendrils close to my ear
Ignore the angry beast still sleeping
Hissing and mocking, never leaving
I can picture the sorrow
Glittering threads spin away
My mind's eye shuts it out
An image of sorrow, where it lay
I feel the pounding in my heart
A feeling steeped in fear
Fingers clawing at my lips and arms
Till blood peeks out, a crimson leer
Hands clench and unclasp
Reaching out to someone
One who means the world to me
Anyone else, they find themselves eclipsed
The pounding rings harder
Unrelentless, unforgiving
The yearning grips stronger
Smothering, suffocating
And suddenly...
Sensations wash away
Gears creaking to a halt
Silence comforting in my ears
Doused in darkness, no need for help
I let my sigh fill with peace
I wave the noises right by
I let my gaze pass unseeing
I fold my arms against myself
I fear the loneliness, beckoning to me
I fear its fingers, threatening a trap
I fear my acceptance, what is needed of me
I fear its fishhooks, swung out
and reeled into its lap
I know it is time
I know I'll be alone
I hope I know how to climb
Back up where love awaits
