It’s hard to describe really
I tell everyone I’ve ever told before I try

It’s like going through each day with a hand reached in and squeezed over my heart
Each beat matched by the movement of my feet
So I walk and walk, the knowledge pumping through me
Of questions unanswerable and life among the stars
And my own ever shorter span of time

And I can’t help but wonder if maybe
HUMANS WEREN’T MEANT FOR THIS
Weren’t meant to stare up at the sky

Everyone I’ve ever told takes it into stride
In the moment, they squirm by my side
But soon they turn back to their daily concerns
Because that’s human

To protect and preserve sanity, that is human
To contemplate the complex every minute of every day
That would’ve gotten a human killed in times close before
It’s evolution plain and simple

So when the tears take over my eyes and my throat begins to close
And the pulse of my heart sounds in a shattered and hollow cave
I remind myself that it’s just because
I WASN’T MEANT FOR THIS

It’s less scary if there’s a reason why
I cannot escape or hide
I walk and walk another day.