I cried for you a flash of silver between my teeth lips, scarlet and drip- ing
at seventeen I knew the weight of you, each hair on your arms as you pressed my back into the stained carpet
the Japanese tattoo that struck me, tracing the thick, black lines with my eyes
a quick glimpse of my grandfather, mixing bread with milk and whiskey
flowers that grew, evergreen in the garden where he'd chase me
laughter ringing through the air, cheesecloth blue dresses and black, buckled shoes
you eat me, heart first then each sense in turn.
I welcome the loss of them all.
The touch of your nails in my thighs. The taste of blood as your rotten mouth consumes my own. The sound of flesh beating flesh. The sight of sweat beads resting on your brow. The smell of ***** seeping through skin.
In a moment I am no longer a girl
but a woman eating the words off my clothes, smarting, sinister ****
a ***** kitchen floor is waiting. The cool relief of the tiles on my burning skin
and a reflection of a woman, no longer whole, yet still alive