Regrets fill my spoon like alphabet soup spelling out my unfulfillment with tiny little letters nagging at my mind
And conflicts own me except there’s no angel and devil it’s just lesser evil versus lesser evil No winner- I’m pulled apart
What if I say this no- I can’t- too risky but then I’m miserable is it better to be miserable?
my daily thoughts when it didn’t use to be Tears are more common than going out to eat
I am ashamed and also ashamed I feel ashamed I don’t want to be fragile but I let myself fall into a crater
And people see it on my face and I see it in the mirror the way I once was all entangled now in another
we don’t choose to fall that’s the point of falling it comes out of the blue after you’re tripped up
And then the hurting comes always after- like a scraped knee and they say time will heal it but how does that work when you keep tripping
a spinning cycle of get hurt, feel bad, tell someone, feel bad goes on repeat, load never unloaded off my chest The worst part is letting the hope build up and getting let down, time and time again
Why? out into the oblivion we ask ourselves and How? do we keep moving when the daily routine feels heavy
I thought my Achilles Heel was the fatal flaw but really it's my heart, the hope, the love when conflicts dance around the only thing to do is write about it