Feb 2016
Eventually, my hatred for you
Slowly transforming me to be just like you
Barely forgiving
Always dominating.
You made me fear love
You made me forget the beauty of it
Instead you keep on reminding me
How painful it can be.
You forge my heart
Into steel
But I hope it's stainless
So it won't rust.
'Cause some part of me wanted to hate you
Yet some part of me wanted to love you
And I just don't know what to do
I'm left confused and with no clue.
But at the end of the day
You are still my father
And nothing can ever change that
As you cannot choose who to be your child...
Slowly transforming me to be just like you
Barely forgiving
Always dominating.
You made me fear love
You made me forget the beauty of it
Instead you keep on reminding me
How painful it can be.
You forge my heart
Into steel
But I hope it's stainless
So it won't rust.
'Cause some part of me wanted to hate you
Yet some part of me wanted to love you
And I just don't know what to do
I'm left confused and with no clue.
But at the end of the day
You are still my father
And nothing can ever change that
As you cannot choose who to be your child...
This is the last part of my "four-part" poem for my Dad. Just to burst this thoughts that right until now I never dare told him. I know that I'm not the only one who undergone this kind of situations so I hope you can relate to it. I hardly make it rhyme but I hope this gonna make sense...
