then
8:00 pm
It had been years
Years had passed since I had seen the boy
That I had almost forgotten

Something was different
Maybe it was him or maybe it was me
But this time
There was no forgetting

Going to sleep that night
I knew I wouldn't wake up alone-
Like all the times before him
I trusted him
And I don't trust anyone

time passes
9:00 am
I am not myself
My heart is heavy and I'm not sure why
It's been like this for days
I've* been like this for days

I was hurting him
Because the sadness I felt consumed me
I became an empty shell
I pushed him away
To save him from the mess that was me

As I refused
To let myself feel happy
He started to walk away
Someone else came along and
He left me

nye
Who remembers the time? We were drunk.
I'm doing better now
Alcohol and friendship helps with sadness
My phone goes off
It's him
My heart stops

He wants to meet
So we do
I've missed him, but I cannot show it
Because we were no longer an option

I **** up
Which is typical.. if you know me
I wish I would've just kissed him
What was I thinking
Now he hates me

now
1:00am
I've gained forgiveness
But I will never be
With the unforgettable boy
I've tried my hardest
And all I receive is friendship

I think he is better
Without me anyway
I am chaotic and toxic
Dragging him into that would be selfish

But I've never had anyone
Treat me like I was made of paper
I've never wanted to explain to someone
In everyway possible
How much they mean to me

soon
No time
We will stop talking
The books I write for you
Will stop filling your phone
But you will always be
The one who got away
And that will be the end of this beautiful tragedy