this is how we survive without living: on diets of choked-down words and blood from bitten tongues, drinking sun that blisters open lips. we are the ones who taste heaven by killing pieces of ourselves, the mortal realizations of all things romanticized into tragedies. when we walk through gardens the roots of trees tug at our feet, the soles sink into the earth; still, we cannot walk below the ground. when we skim flat rocks over black waves we awaken the fairer sirens who dwell in fog like the stones we throw and sing our bodies into mist. but if we learn to tread water long enough, our bare toes will kick up the dirt and unearth the skeletons of shipwrecks; these, at last, will sail us home.
hopefully someday you'll make it up from whatever problems you have, and you'll find a place where you're truly happy. you'll stumble upon it one day and suddenly find that you have time to get to know yourself, time to grow-- and it will be beautiful, and you will feel beautiful, and everything will be okay.