I'm finding it difficult to understand
How the words ****** and best friend coincide
And I'm still so set on finding out
Where we went wrong
And how
And I've retraced my every step with an unsure pen
Remembering crisp details through a blurry lens
As I wonder
How a fearless girl
Forgave her worst nightmare;
I wonder how she feared less
With every unsettling reminder;
I wonder if somewhere between
A drunken memory's flickers and fades
She went numb.