please
do not
make comments
like “I’m going to stuff my face”
this is a trigger

please
do not
mention how fattening the food is
believe me I know
I am a calculator
nothing goes in
without me counting the calories
this is a trigger

this dinner table
is a battleground
i am fighting myself

please
do not
tell me
“its the holidays,
you deserve it”
it is not that simple and
this is a trigger

please
do not
make me a spectacle
If I could eat
whatever you are eating
believe me
I would.
this is a trigger

this dinner table
is a battleground
but I
will beat
my disordered thoughts