today
I decided to stop talking
to see if anyone
really wanted to talk to me
or if I was just forcing myself
upon them
and I realized
as I sat in silence
that my words
are worthless
and always have been
yesterday
I screamed out loud
and no sound came out
but I felt
the inside of my mouth
rip apart
and I didn't cry
tomorrow
I went to the beach
with words in my pockets
weighing them down
like tiny stones
and I went for a swim
and let the words
pull me down
and let the water
fill my lungs
and I screamed
again
it made no sound