And yet, somehow, nonetheless, even so,
I am loved
And I love
And I love and get loved and love and get loved in an endless cycle
His name makes my heartstrings loosen
He's a million miles away and when his voice filters through my phone I feel my lungs get in the car and drive to him
I wish it wasn't so
And yet
I wish nothing will ever change
Day after day,
I make plans
What I'll do when I see him next,
What I'll say when he asks me to marry him,
What I'll name our first
Second
Third
Fourth?
Child and what I'll do when they get into college
What I'll do if he dies before me
What I'll want written on my grave, next to his, because if we can't spend these moments together now, it's only fair we get eternity
And yet,
We're young and things might not go as planned
But I'll wake up tomorrow and make a new plan
Because when you love and are loved in return, you have time