Wake up

Or don't

Interact with those who love me

Interact with those I don't love

(Same people)

Think about how easy the way out is

Wait for a day,
Then repeat process
Spend my whole life waiting for it to get better

Yet one year later,

Here I am

And I'm still a depressive, edgy, melodramatic, pseudo-poetic *******  

Here I am

And it never got better

Don't say that's my fault because it ******* isn't

I don't control the world around me

And I don't even control myself at this point

I'm ending this cycle

I don't want to live my whole life waiting for things to get better

"Go out and make it better!"

It doesn't work that way!

If it did, do you honestly think I would choose this life instead?

God,

One year later and here I am

Still unhappy

Still writing ****** poems

Still isolated (albeit surrounded by people this year..)

What's different?

I discovered the meaning of life

I discovered what it means to be human

I discovered what it means to lose humanity, and realise you never had it

I discovered what it means to love, and what it means to realise you can't

I discovered bad things only ever happen to me!!

I discovered my comfortable first-world life is officially the worst life to ever have been lived ever.

One year later,

And I'm still this way

One year later,

And I'm still a ****