You rarely speak, communicating only your angst

It tears me apart; only because I have so much to say.
So much of literally

N O T H I N G

to say.

I sit here and pretend that my words have meaning, when in reality, they're words filled with meanings I cannot yet convey.

Why I cant get them through to you,
I'll never know.

Is it because I'm not good enough, or because you don't want to listen?