Sip your venom and exhale your dioxide How do you lick your lips when you have daggers for teeth? Your stained wife beaters serve as a constant reminder of what I refuse to become. Your hatred ruined my childhood optimism And showed me this world is not golden I guess, thanks for showing me what a real man looks like One who splashes fire at those who sit in the same hell What was once a sweet tinkling sound now rips me back to my childhood You showed me how to manipulate people with words and destroy them with a taps Thanks for the incredible tolerance Both mental and physical Thanks for being my drama teacher and preparing me for this endless play we call life Thank you for the little things For the runs around the park when I considered suicide For the trips to the pool where I would swim to the bottom and wait for someone to get me Thanks for the times you helped me pick rice out of my knees after I was done kneeling My decision to never be a father was very easy. I will never let a child thank me like this. Thank you for teaching me what a cycle is and how it works within families Thanks for family values Family value #1: family should me nothing Family value #2: unconditional love does not have to be mutual 3: false hope is enough 4: your replacement is your rock 5: adultery? dismissible. Feminine? Loathsome inexplicable despicable shame 6: you are a fraud if you walk without God even if he ignored my sin 7: what do we now know? I now know how to control my anger I now have control over my emotions I now know how important it is to love myself before anyone else I now know how to be independent I now know how to stop this cycle But you won't know You will never know that I am no longer your son You will never see me be the pink fluorescent You will never hear me say I love you truthfully In fact, you will never hear the truth You will hear what I want you to hear You will see what I want you to see You will think what I want you to think But you will know nothing And I thank you for that