I was in love 

Yes, I really was

I fell into that hole of love 

I kept falling 

and falling 

until I realized that 

I was just sick 

Sick of everything the world had given me

And I finally found a distraction 

You were the rainbow on that day when a storm plucked a tree off of the ground like it was one of the weeds a gardener wouldn't like around his plants 

You were the music I listened to from my phone when I wanted to escape from the world 

You were the dreams I unknowingly smile at in my sleep 

You were that ice cream I had when I was depressed 

You were the stars I stared at when I had nothing to do 

You were the blanket I kept on me when the night was too cold

You were the doodles on the back of all my notebooks when I was bored in class 

You were my everything, my infinity 

Until I stopped fathoming the world's problematic gifts 

I started to see the beauty and disregard the ugliness of it all 

Just like what I did to you 

The universe is filled with vast loveliness in a way that only someone who observed it daily would understand

Just like you 

But yes, I realized that I was just sick, yet again and love wasn't a distraction but a mere realization of what the universe truly wants me to appreciate.