here it is
i was trying to get better
for a while
but it never lasts
nothing lasts forever
were once words that comforted me
because it meant
that this ache in my chest
wouldnt last forever
but nothing lasts forever
i won't last forever
that ache in my chest
could be there my whole life
and still not last forever
now i find comfort
in the things that once scared me
like driving on the wrong side of the road
or tearing myself apart
once you start the timer on a bomb
you cant stop it
dont listen to the movies
you cant stop it
and you tried to stop it
but all you did was drown out the ticking
with your melodic voice
and i almost let you stay
but no matter how selfish i am
i know i don't deserve you
and i'm still self destructing
the bomb hasn't stopped ticking
nothing lasts forever, though
so one day the countdown will stop
but i could have that bomb
ticking down
strapped on my chest
for my whole life
and it still wouldn't last forever