I do not want to be here
not a reference to this chair
nor wherever I am
living is too much to bear
I do not want my body
It is beautiful in its time
that is not the issue
it just doesn't feel it's mine
I do not want to marry
they tell me I'll change my mind
but someone who won't touch me
will be very hard to find
I do not want children
this is not a worry of wealth
I simply couldn't do it
as I'm still a child myself
I do not force "giving hugs"
for not all children feel safe
as once upon a time
help for me came too late
I did not ask for this life
nor the things that have been done
but I must act grateful
for the sacrifice of the Son
I do not want to be here
It is God who wishes I live
but hell is worse than earth
so something has to give
I do not want to deny
myself and my desires
but life was not made for me
it was made for something higher