I started to question myself
Of whether I was capable of loving
The fact that I cannot puke a decent amount of emotions scared me
I wasn't me anymore

I had a hard time dealing with reciprocation
I lacked empathy
I wasn't me anymore

I doubted the people who showed me sincerity
I never wanted their affection
And eventually, I started pushing people away
I wasn't me anymore

The thing is, I wasn't meant to be pursued
I was used to being the one who cared more
But I hope that one day I will be inlove again
But it feels like I can't
Because I am not me anymore