I hate myself
There’s nothing more to it
Everything
I hate everything about myself
I’m stuck
With the one person I hate most in this world
I punish myself
Bring upon pain to body
And I can’t stop
Because it’s an open season of getting the chance for revenge
Revenge for making yourself weak, stupid, and a disappointment
You cry on one side but laugh on the other
The two sides battling it out but both know who will win
But you feel accomplished afterward
Because you know
Deep
Deep down
That you deserved every amount of that pain
So I’ve now seen the solution besides this:
It’s the only escape
The only way out
Is to destroy both sides, which, in turn
Will ultimately destroy you forever
And death seems more inviting than life