I've mentioned the new puppy before so it won't come as a surprise that I'm reading a book about how dogs think. I want to know how the flea collar feels around his thickening neck, next to the skull and crossbones collar, and why he tucks his tail under when he sleeps, and if when he is, for a few hours, in the crate, which seems cozy enough, he devises a plan to pay me back for this captivity. I want to understand his relentless drive to be where I am, to trod down the hall and back again with his heavy paws ("That is going to be a big dog," everyone says) even into the bathroom, which I typically prefer to be private.
He won't go out in the rain unless I'm standing out there too, both of us soaked to the bone. He won't sleep without one eye on me if I move from the space beside him. Why would this animal devote himself to me so utterly, I who really can't be trusted not to throw shoes or swat a nose when his love bites bite too hard. I who throw a fit about the *** just inside the door, I who deny him access to the cat. I who write poems about his private life and study him like a ******, while he goes on sleeping.